Anonymous asked:

wait so is a trigger anything you dislike?

idislikecispeople answered:

A trigger is anything that ilicits a negative response in someone, so in some sense, yeah?




No it fucking isn’t. A trigger is some thing, you know, triggers a psychological response that takes you away from reality, causes severe panic attacks, makes you black out, among other horrible things.

To our anon wondering what a trigger is.

<3 Eros

Seeing Tumlrinas throw about the term “trigger” as a buzzword is maddening.

Let’s throw in my own anecdote of trauma, just so you get an idea of what triggers, trauma and shock can actually do:

After watching an event I would never, ever like to see happen again, I lost contact with the world for a period of around 3-5 days due to shock. I can remember very little between witnessing the event, and “waking up” in the middle of a cafe I didn’t even know I’d gone into, some 200km away from where I had been.

I only know it was around 3-5 days because I had a series of tickets in my pockets, indicating I had boarded some trains and buses. But I do not remember those journeys. I do not know who I may have interacted with, who stamped my tickets, or when a good €280 had made its way out of my pocket.

In some of the flickers of memory I do have left of that time, I think I knew I was in shock, but was incapable of acting. Even when I “woke” in the cafe, I didn’t really know what to do, because I was alone in a strange place. Someone brought me a sandwich. Had I ordered that? I tried to pay for it. The guy giving me the sandwich gave me a funny look; said I already had. How did that happen? How often had it happened?

Today, the sound of trains sets me off into crippling anxiety attacks. I have a supply of alprazolam now that I have to avoid getting hooked on, so I can manage not to completely lose my shit during the more severe episodes. Sometimes, it’s not anxiety at all, but what my friends and family describe to me as a “trance” or “The Stare”… and what medical science knows as a blackout. I don’t remember a hell of a lot during those, either, but thank god, they are brief. Maybe 15-30 minutes when they happen.

I think I must stop ranting… never counting on many people reading, anyhow, but in the event someone does read this, I’d rather it be known. It just infuriates me, seeing these people drop terms like “trigger” and “PTSD” for things that don’t remotely fall under these definitions.

I know what that shit is like, and I cannot, for the life of me, understand why Tumblr thinks it’s such an incredible and popular thing to have. It is fuckawful, it has worked its way into my life, and it makes very many things that were once easy very fucking difficult.

I have to tell friends, “No, I am sorry, I cannot ride the train; let’s take a bus for a three-day journey instead.” I have to stand there, and awkwardly try to explain why I would do this, and sometimes… I can’t fucking do it. Sometimes I break down if the matter is pressed.And then I can’t explain why the hell I’m crying or freaking out, or why I wouldn’t talk for 15-30 minutes, or would talk, and say shit I don’t even know I said.

"Why don’t you watch this film with us, Eyja?" I love you all, and would love to. But it’s got a five-second scene where the main character steps out of the subway, and I can hear those train wheels screeching away in my head long after those five seconds are up.







help I’m having emotions about a cartoon antidepressant trying to be useful


yes but look at it, it cares about her and just wants to help her be able to function. It’s like “I know you’re sad. here, I’ll help you.”

LIKE OKAY THOUGH can I explain why this is exceedingly brilliant??  Because when anti-depressants work right, that’s what they DO.  They don’t make you happy or emotionless or unhealthy in any way, they make you FUNCTIONAL.  They make it so that a depressed person who can barely get out of bed can start to support themselves again and more importantly, start to THINK for themselves again without the permeating presence of depression.

Depression is a cyclical disease, that tells you to think a certain way, and, because you’re depressed, you generally believe it, and then things get worse and worse.  The ONLY thing anti-depressants do is to STOP that cycle in its tracks!!  Which is something to be ecstatic about and celebrated, even if you don’t realize it at the time, because when you’re depressed, getting out of bed is climbing Mount Everest.  Antidepressants help stop that cycle so that one day soon, getting out of bed can JUST be getting out of bed.  They don’t even expedite the recovery process in most cases, they just make recovery POSSIBLE IN THE FIRST PLACE.  So this little guy is portrayed with a fuckton more accuracy than I ever expected from a commercial.

It’s back and adorable